letting him speak where i do not find words. there are muscles in my body i didn't know about before. and they hurt. worry grows everytime i see the bunch of clothes... but that's not really the reason. life is easier with a mother-in-law, but the true reason is (or might be, am not sure) that lately i have started to care about people. even those who used to be mostly meaningless. even strangers. the first step to learn love?
b:
Small talk with the doctor<?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" />
In the clinic coffee room.
Eerie landscape of future.
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Can't remember single thing.
Not the drive
Not what they said
Maybe they said nothing at all
Nor did I raise my hand
Smashed my fist down, and again
Fear is what I feel
Fear of sleep, and waking up covered in blood
Fear of being left alone
They can put me in cage and trash the key
The fear's gonna stay
I don't feel guilty 'cause
I don't feel anything.
Can't remember a single thing.
01.02.06
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The river froze
Days ago.
Still missing something.
29.11.05
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Love can bring bruises
It can pull you down to hell.
But that's what love is for.
20.12.05
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